As many of my dA friends know, I am quite the spaz.

I let thoughts rule me beofre i can make it rational.

I have bad anxiety, and damn i know it.
I have joined a place where i can seek advice, and get help.
I joined this place to help in my relationship so that i wouldn't put it all on my Fiancee.

Today, i should have gone to that site... but instead i let lose on my Fiancee. I asked them for advice tonight. and they told me this.

"You need to stop trying to drag thoughts out of him, he talks to you, he will say what is needed to be said eventually, be patient, distance is hard, but it is harder when stress is involded."

so from now on... when i feel this way. i have to take action and control it.

For my friends who helped me Thanks a bunch i really apprechiate it.

For my scottie honey. I love you. And i will try harder not to stress you out, cause you have enough on your plate. From now on when i call you, it is going to be positive calls only! No more negitive. i am going to start a journal of some sort to vent and conrtol my anxiety and everything.

I look forward to being your wify